Heaven Bend to take my handAnd lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere long the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
But the cost was so much more than I could bear
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
We all begin out with good intent
When love is raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
I've held so dear
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
Heaven bend to take my hand
I've nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to these I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don't see
That it's one wrong step one slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem away to be redeemed
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here and
Tell me I told you so
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yeah, everything's back to it's fucked up place again.
some part of me knew it wouldn't last long
just keep hurting me more, baby. whatever makes you goddamn happy.
(i'm angry. hurt. a lot of things, since i'm finally alone, away from everybody and letting my walls down. i'm crying again and it won't stop. i want to be held. i wanna be comforted. but i know no one can. because no one can give me the thing that makes me happy. except for her, but she doesn't want to. i read the note, she left just a few days ago, and it warms my heart. i think of the words she said jsut last night, and i fucking die. i'm sorry for being myself. i'm sorry for existing. i'm sorry for everything. i'm sorry for ever dating you. i'm sorry for ever loving you. i'm sorry for whatever it is you want me to be sorry for, because i have no idea anymore what you want from me. i don't know. i odn't know. i don't fucking know. just. FHIOEHOIAJFKLEHFOIDHFOHEFOIJEIOFHWEOICHDKCJDSKOFHEROIWTHEWQIOTJERIOTERWTKHOIFGRJWOIFWEJPCWNJEOICFJWERFIWETIOWERJTIEWTJITIFJAKSDAJFIRWOTHWROAIFJIOSFAJSODITHUJUOSFJKLFL;JGKSLJ;KSFGFJK
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read your email. i guess. whatever.